When I look around at my life, the people in it, the things I do & feel, even my posessions...when I really STOP to take a look, I know it is full of GOOD GOOD things. Why do we get so busy that we stop appreciating these good things. I got 2 speeding tickets in the mail over the course of the last couple of weeks. I wonder..."what was making me rush", "what was more important than me taking my time". I guess the tickets were Gods way of reminding me to slow down. For that, I am thankful. Everyday I go rushing through my life. Something always seems more important than sitting on the deck with my husband for a cup of coffee, watching a you tube video with my kids, or picking up the phone to listen to a friend. I get wrapped up in this bubble which is only me & my own world. It is lonely sometimes. The problem with me is I don't know how to do moderation. All or nothing. So I shut down & close everyone out. My reason right now is I am restoring... working on Brave Girls. But what is my reason tomorrow or next week ...everyone has things they want to work on. I want to stop, listen look, spend time, slow down & respect all of the blessings that my life. My life is so full of good things.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
"My heart is on fire....my soul is like a wheel that's burning..." this song popped into my head. I want to & am starting to feel this way right now where I am at. I have alot of learning to do and a lot of things that just may need 'fixing' but there is never such a good time as now...right now to love me & respect me & get back to the me that I deserve to be.