Thursday, May 10, 2012


Ok so the picture above doesnt exactly match the mood of this post but I am looking for my happy place!!  Laundry on the go, vacuuming, coffee drinking, work out in...but I had to stop & write...  I am so so frustrated today!  I am overwhelmed with things that are mine to do...  Didnt sleep more than 1 1/2 hours last night & woke up to (j) asking if he could go to the doctor (a whole other story for another time) a daze, I say ya but my wheels start turning & there is no sleep to be caught up on for this Mama...I came into the kitchen this morning, the dishes are all over, even some left from supper last night that was supposed to be cleaned up by the kids.  I went to feed the dogs some leftovers, the fire wood that the kids were supposed to put away, well, its still in the same place...after 2 weeks!!!  The laundry I did two three & four days ago, is still on the floor in their rooms.  The basement??  Well, lets just say I worked out elsewhere because it was too upsetting to look at the cans & the garbage & even find the remote for my background music.

Arrgggghhhh.  It's funny that there is always a $20 available for the movies, or a ride to them, sure you can go golfing, ya you can have 3 kids sleep over...I will make everyone breakfast.  Seriously??  How about a little respect & a little follow through.  This house is 4000 sq feet.  There are 5 people living here....not just me.  I am pretty sure I have seen the other 4 lurking about, in the kitchen making snacks, in the bathroom, lazing on the couch watching tv...WTF??!  Worse yet, the biggest kid (kp) makes excuses for all of it!  I guess it isnt enough that I dont really sit still all day...there is always a hot meal, clean clothes, groceries, kids to appointments & jobs...its handled....can I have some friggen help. 

You know what else, my sister writes on a public forum last night asking me if I left soiled shorts on the driveway where her & Mom live??!  HUH!??  First, I havent soiled any shorts recently, Second, I wasnt at Mom's place so I certainly never left any behind & THIRD...WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU WRITE SOMETHING LIKE THAT on a public setting??  To ridicule me, belittle me or simply make a fool of me??  Wow...wonder what would happen if the shoes were on her feet??

I am almost done ranting...NO!!  I am done.  I am going to finish the list I started for myself.  Supper is 1/2 prepared & laundry is almost caught up.  I am gonna dust & vaccuum with my earphones in & sweat this mood out....

Hoping the rest of you are having a freakin fantastic day!!

Sunday, May 6, 2012

I borrowed this from someone on facebook tonite...  I love the message & I thought it blog worthy.  I like to come here to share my thoughts and I would like to share the following with you...
We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another.   Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are.
After that we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.  We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire.

The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now.  If not now ... when?

Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.

from Alfred D Souza ...  "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin.  But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."

So stop waiting until you finish school ... until you go back to school ... until you lose ten pounds ... until you gain ten pounds ... until you have kids ... until your kids leave the house ... until you start work ... until you retire ... until you get married ... until you get divorced ... until Friday night ... until Sunday morning ... until you get a new car or home ... until your car or home is paid off ... until spring, until summer ... until fall ... until winter ... until you are off welfare ... until the first or fifteenth ... until your song comes on ... until you've had a drink ... until you've sobered up ... until you die ... until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy ...