Saturday, February 26, 2011


I can't sleep & my mind is swirling.  It is just a couple more sleeps til Kevin & I leave for Mexico.  I desperately need a vacation.  I am going to be brutally honest & say that my life needs the vacation!!  I am feeling so unorganized & so overwhelmed.  I am screwing up left, right & centre on a special project I have on the go... I am short tempered with my family, and I have no ambition. 
Tonight, as I sit here thinking.... I am increasingly annoyed at the fact that my husband is not home yet.  We have not seen one another since 7:30 this morning.  His last words to me were, "I am going to the hockey game with 'said' friend & after, I will come home & we can watch a movie together."  Not mad that he is out but angry at the lack of a phone call to let me know plans have changed.  After all, he would expect it from me.
That isn't it though.  I am annoyed at everything & myself.  I am hoping that this vacation brings a sense of renewal so that when I 'comeback', i can tackle everything with a new energy & organization.  If I give that much, I will  get it back  & I can be me again!! 

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Feeling all Philisophycal...

I been reading some inspirational sites today & came across this picture of Angelina Jolie.  I love this woman.  I think she is beautiful, smart, & sexy as hell.  I had an interesting day yesterday... it inspired me & reminded me that people are cruel but it doesn't matter.  At the end of the day, it is how you deal with it.  Sometimes, I utter the word hate but I really don't hate anyone.  I pity them, I may dislike them but I will always be sad for them if they are hurt, or be happy for them if they succeed at something or get great news. 

I think everyone should follow the commandment to treat others how you would like to be treated.  I could be considered a bit of a hypocrite because I don't always do that but it is my intention.  Sometimes I just feel so conflicted because I have been taught that it is important to ask for what you want/need.  Being Blue (colors), I want everyone to be happy sometimes at my own expense.... shouldn't I be honest??  Gotta go...more on this later.