Sunday, October 14, 2012

Go do it!!

So I guess this divine little post on facebook earlier today is for me...even if it isnt, I am happy to claim it.  What am I doing.  Just have to give my head a shake.  I have all the answers when someone asks them of me and I can sound so confidant in delivering what I know but I sure don't live them and I am ashamed of that.  I have started so many things and I don't see through because fear courses through me.  Fear that I let others put in me.  That is my only thought for tonite. 

Thursday, May 10, 2012


Ok so the picture above doesnt exactly match the mood of this post but I am looking for my happy place!!  Laundry on the go, vacuuming, coffee drinking, work out in...but I had to stop & write...  I am so so frustrated today!  I am overwhelmed with things that are mine to do...  Didnt sleep more than 1 1/2 hours last night & woke up to (j) asking if he could go to the doctor (a whole other story for another time) a daze, I say ya but my wheels start turning & there is no sleep to be caught up on for this Mama...I came into the kitchen this morning, the dishes are all over, even some left from supper last night that was supposed to be cleaned up by the kids.  I went to feed the dogs some leftovers, the fire wood that the kids were supposed to put away, well, its still in the same place...after 2 weeks!!!  The laundry I did two three & four days ago, is still on the floor in their rooms.  The basement??  Well, lets just say I worked out elsewhere because it was too upsetting to look at the cans & the garbage & even find the remote for my background music.

Arrgggghhhh.  It's funny that there is always a $20 available for the movies, or a ride to them, sure you can go golfing, ya you can have 3 kids sleep over...I will make everyone breakfast.  Seriously??  How about a little respect & a little follow through.  This house is 4000 sq feet.  There are 5 people living here....not just me.  I am pretty sure I have seen the other 4 lurking about, in the kitchen making snacks, in the bathroom, lazing on the couch watching tv...WTF??!  Worse yet, the biggest kid (kp) makes excuses for all of it!  I guess it isnt enough that I dont really sit still all day...there is always a hot meal, clean clothes, groceries, kids to appointments & jobs...its handled....can I have some friggen help. 

You know what else, my sister writes on a public forum last night asking me if I left soiled shorts on the driveway where her & Mom live??!  HUH!??  First, I havent soiled any shorts recently, Second, I wasnt at Mom's place so I certainly never left any behind & THIRD...WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU WRITE SOMETHING LIKE THAT on a public setting??  To ridicule me, belittle me or simply make a fool of me??  Wow...wonder what would happen if the shoes were on her feet??

I am almost done ranting...NO!!  I am done.  I am going to finish the list I started for myself.  Supper is 1/2 prepared & laundry is almost caught up.  I am gonna dust & vaccuum with my earphones in & sweat this mood out....

Hoping the rest of you are having a freakin fantastic day!!

Sunday, May 6, 2012

I borrowed this from someone on facebook tonite...  I love the message & I thought it blog worthy.  I like to come here to share my thoughts and I would like to share the following with you...
We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another.   Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are.
After that we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.  We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire.

The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now.  If not now ... when?

Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.

from Alfred D Souza ...  "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin.  But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."

So stop waiting until you finish school ... until you go back to school ... until you lose ten pounds ... until you gain ten pounds ... until you have kids ... until your kids leave the house ... until you start work ... until you retire ... until you get married ... until you get divorced ... until Friday night ... until Sunday morning ... until you get a new car or home ... until your car or home is paid off ... until spring, until summer ... until fall ... until winter ... until you are off welfare ... until the first or fifteenth ... until your song comes on ... until you've had a drink ... until you've sobered up ... until you die ... until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy ...

Monday, April 30, 2012

Creat your Living Canvas

So excited to start something else...something new.  My great friend brought it to my attention & with a great timeline, this is an online class that I can do.  I am taking a living art canvas class.  I havent even started it yet but I joined the online group & WOW!!  What a great bunch so far.  So welcoming & helpful.  I cannot wait to carve some time into my busy days to start getting my art on!!  I feel so alive & happy when I play with my paints & gesso & mod podge & glitter ....its all perfectly fun!!  A great way to LIVE & express myself.  So thanks knew just what I needed!!  Come join me!!

NOW...where to get those awesome stamps.

It's a Boy!!!

For those of you who don't know, my family will be hosting a boy from Austria while my son is away in Taiwan!!  This boy is an avid fan of Jamie Oliver (this could be very good for us) and loves to cook like him.  He is  also an aviation nut.  I cannot wait to show him some of the best things about Canada & share our home with him.  He will go to school here & interact with our family as a part of it!  I hope he knows how brave I think he is & I hope he knows he has already found a special place in my heart.  Cannot wait to meet you in person Julius!! 

I am feeling so inspired...

Ok peeps...I am feeling inspired. proud of my young friend.  I did not ask permission &  need to write this NOW so I cannot introduce you to my friend but her birthday was this past weekend.  She found this Birthday Project & she ran with it...She touched more people lives on her day than some of us do in a lifetime.  I bet it was the very best & most memorable birthday she EVER spent!! 

I am inspired to do this too.  I was thinking that I should do one thing every day because I am not so sure I can wait for my February birthday. Lol!! 

Take the time to check this out.  You wont be sorry.  Be blessed & have an amazing day!!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Been thinking alot about this...

I have thought alot about this lately.  It may be that the grumpy sales clerk got yelled at all night by her useless boyfriend who was drinking.  Maybe that rude little boy who threw something at your dog failed an important test or the next person missed an important deadline, someone close to them passed away, they lost their life savings. There are so many reasons for anger.  Of course it is never okay to take your problems out on someone but human nature allows us to sometimes slip up & forget that the person standing in front of us is not to blame.  So I think it is a really great idea to live by.  Your kind smile or word could turn their day around or make them feel less unlovable.  Kindness really does matter.

The other thing is, when you know someone whether they be family or close friends or even just acquaintences lets not forget that they deserve respect & kindness too.  Sometimes when I am in the safety of my family & something is going wrong in my day, I tend to take it out on those closest to me.  Maybe because they are my safe place & I know there is forgiveness & love but it is NOT fair. 

So for today, I am going to speak softer, be more thoughtful & understanding to everyone I meet.  Its about treating everyone you meet with the very same respect you would appreciate.