Been thinking & I know that LOVE makes the world go round. It picks you up when you are down, it carries you through the most difficult times & so very much more. I reflect often on what my family does for me. I feel very dissatisfied in the moment sometimes. Take Mother's day for example. My boys were dirtbiking & swimming, my daughter was at a sleepover, & my hubby spent the day enraptured by the tv. Now to his credit he did offer to do something although neither of us had any good ideas whatsoever. So game after NHL game prevailed on the screen while I played on my computer, had a bath & moped. The gift unveiling was a sordid affair. Not one of the children were there to bear witness to my excitement (oh yeah, there was none), & nothing was wrapped. I recieved a Snuggie, an "I Love you Mom" mug, and 2 (2 for $10) candles in putrid scents. But alas, I am not going to complain because I know it is more than some of my counterparts receive.
What I did LOVE was the card from my children. They each wrote down a favorite memory of time spent with me!! Priceless! Jordan ventured to recall a time when we were camping with out his Dad & it was raining! While Brendan & Megan watched television, Jordan & I played games all day long. Brendan's recollection was one of the times when I went to the school to defend his honor against a poor teacher. He was in the office in another area from me & he could hear things getting quite heated with his principal. He loved that the principal kept saying "Sherri, Sherri" & I continued my rampage until all of my thoughts were out & on the table. Then my sweet little Megan said the least of all...simply put, "Disneyland". I wish she had been more explainatory but she was probably off to pack for her friends when her Dad was tyring to wrangle them all to sign the card! Nothing gets in the way of her plans...rarely!! So in short, I know that I have impacted each of my children in one way or another. I just don't always see the moment at the time. I know that each one of them knows without a doubt that I LOVE them very much. I also know that even though they may get mad at me and utter the words "I
HATE YOU", that deep down they really do LOVE me too!!
I can't expect them to know at any given moment what I would like most. It isn't their job to know me. It is their job to be kids vulnerable to the ways of the world & I am to LOVE and guide them through it all the very best that I can. So, I will continue my journey with them, making sure that they know that my LOVE knows no bounds & I will guide each of them with LOVE & understanding even if it isn't popular in the moment!! Jordan, Brendan & Megs...I LOVE YOU!!